Long time no post...

...And in all honesty, I probably would have kept silent for a while longer, if it weren't for paulafrom2son giving me one of those new LJ-nudges *hugs Julia* Thanks for thinking of me!

I dunno what to say, though. This is just a bad time of year for me, I guess. My birthday is in exactly ten days from now, and I'm really not coping too well with that. I never do really, but this year is especially bad since since I'll be 22 (it's a long, not to mention stupid, story; so I'll just leave it at that). Then there's the fact that this is also the time of my little morbid anniversary of the time I spent in the hospital, which always intensifies all those memories and issues I wish I could just forget. There's a lot of other shit too, but I'm just not up for talking about it (or anything else really, for that matter).

You know, I haven't left the house one single time this year. I realize what that means, of course, but I can't bring myself to feel anything but vague disinterest.

Urgh... Yeah. Sorry, I'll try to make a better post tomorrow or something, ok? I'm gonna disable comments on this post, because... I just don't wanna talk bout this. Plus it'll also be an incentive for me to actually do make a post tomorrow; since I'd love to talk to all you guys. Need to catch up with my flist too, haven't read it in over a week now *ashamed*

Time for me to go lie down and stare at the ceiling sleep now. Till tomorrow!